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  Hello family, friends and whomever else comes across this page:)

  My goal is to write about my experiences to hopefully pursue a position in a fitness or wellness magazine to continue on inspiring readers to go out and live their lives to the absolute fullest.

  I, Amber Prosia, am 26 years old and I've been working and traveling for almost 2 years now. Over these past years I can honestly say I've met some of the most amazing, incredible, inspiring and absolutely beautiful people that I have the honour to call my friends. Not only have I met unbelievable spirits but I've had the time of my life being just me:).

  Now before I start, I want you to know – there would be absolutely no chance I could have been traveling for this long without the unconditional love and support from my fabulous family and outstanding friends that I've had for years before beginning this never ending adventure = my life.

  Thank you wouldn't even give them justice. I just want you all to know: I am forever grateful for absolutely every single person who has come and gone in my life up this very moment that I breathe and type now.

  

  I feel my life is like a movie and sometimes people come in and out of my life as extras. Other times, there are main characters or I may be in fast forward. I truly try to never stay in reverse. I most certainly take the best from the past moments but I do leave the rest behind. Whatever I feel is not going to benefit me then it stays exactly where it is. While staying in the moment is my constant goal. My favourite personal question is: will this matter a year from now? And usually, no it won't and at that moment, I let it go and move on:)

  As my life movie plays out I do acknowledge there are most certainly chapters of my life and I know the page will always turn when its suppose to as well as, end when I am ready for the next lesson. Let's begin with where we all started and what we all need: LOVE :)

Love. Heart break. Appreciation. True Love for yourself.

  These four words make this chapter number one. Without love no one would be here. Without having our heart broken we truly wouldn't appreciate the love from someone else and without that appreciation we wouldn't have the strength or knowledge to know we need to love ourselves first before we can love anyone else.

  Let me explain how I've learned this lesson and how I learned it very hard.

 Let's call him Pedro (not only do I love playing Pedro in the drinking game Kings, but the name fits:) ). Before I started traveling I was dating Pedro for 3 years. He knew this was something I always wanted to do and completely supported me. Well, as immature as I was, it was a 'test' to see if he would support me doing something on my own because I couldn't imagine being with someone who wasn't. But of course, he was. Before I left to Australia we talked about all situations and left on the same page – so I thought.

  Seven months later of strong long distance ~ thank goodness for technology! I couldn't imagine writing a letter every day and hope he got it 3 weeks later. (which later I found out he left the same page within the first month) The final month before I came home he went M.I.A (missing in action). This month ended up being one of my favourite and most self realizing months of my life! I had the gut feelings, the intuition and all the crazy thoughts we all go through when the one you love doesn't respond. Yet while traveling as opportunities continue to arise, I stayed true to myself. As those opportunities tempted me; I knew who I wanted to be and it didn't matter what or who he was doing back home, miles away. It matter who I am and my choices because in the end you can only control your own behaviour and your own choices. I chose to be loyal. I chose to be honest. I chose to be true to myself.

  I am an honest, loving, caring, faithful, fun, random, active, charismatic and a unique human being. I am proud of who I am, what I have been through and what I've learned so far.

  I strive to be the best friend that I would want as a best friend every day knowing I am being true to myself which has gotten me exactly where I am today: happy and full of life! :)

  You ask, why the heck am I so grateful and happy Pedro lied, betrayed and mistreated me? Well, because he taught me forgiveness, acceptance and letting go. The whole situation made me proud of my choices and because I know I deserve and will have better than that.

  The way I look at it is like this = if I had a daughter and some guy was treating her the exact way Pedro has been treating me: I would tell her to leave. What kind of mom would I be if I didn't have the strength to walk away with my head held high knowing I did everything I could and he simply chose differently.

  One thing I would like to be known by is that I do what I say, I follow through and I keep my word. I learned this lesson by getting heart broken. There are always positives from every negative situation. Some we may have to be patient to see them but they are always worth it! While some are just a little more hidden than others;)

  I also learned I was definitely not innocent and I did cause a chunk of the mess. He truly did have me at my absolute worse. I know I am not perfect nor do I try to be. I do strive for excellence but I do know I'm going to make mistakes and trust me, I've already made quite a few. However, I most certainly don't regret them because I love myself exactly the way I am and I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't learn from those mistakes.

  The great thing with having your heart broken is you get to choose what pieces you want to pick up – if any – and trust me, I sure chose wisely on the ones I picked up:) Not only do I appreciate and am extremely grateful for our time together – I deeply hope he is happy and she treats him as great as he deserves – that I didn't always give him.

  Without loosing him, I wouldn't appreciate all the little things, I plus so many others take (n) for granted. I know next time I am in a serious relationship I will owe a lot to Pedro for teaching me about love, value and respect even though his last bit of childish behaviour demonstrates otherwise. We are no longer talking and I am sad I did lose my best friend but sometimes in our lives we need to lose someone to make room for someone even better! As always – I wish him well and will always love him as the Pedro I knew, not the Pedro he is today.

Shaping. Growing. Acting. Thinking. Believing. Being you.

  The people we surround ourselves with on a daily to regular basis has a HUGE influence on our behaviour, decisions and actions. This fact alone opened my eyes to see Pedro was truly my only negative aspect in my life and it was time to say goodbye.

  I constantly hang around inspiring, driven, fun, loving, down to earth individuals because they all encourage and motivate me to be a better person.

  I have this motto: if I can be happy 95% of the time, 5% we all have our moments, days or even weeks but to be happy 95% of the time, I will live a great life. So far – it's been AMAZING!

  “There's one thing guaranteed in life = it (people/things) will change!” = Thank you Ouellettes! The best advice I could hear during my heart break phase! To moving on and what a move on, I've been on:)!!

A couple of songs that helped me through this chapter of my life:) 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xn676-fLq7I

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vqnwqsJYyiU