Hello family, friends and whomever else
comes across this page:)
My goal is to write about my
experiences to hopefully pursue a position in a fitness or wellness
magazine to continue on inspiring readers to go out and live their
lives to the absolute fullest.
I, Amber Prosia, am 26 years old and
I've been working and traveling for almost 2 years now. Over these
past years I can honestly say I've met some of the most amazing,
incredible, inspiring and absolutely beautiful people that I have the
honour to call my friends. Not only have I met unbelievable spirits
but I've had the time of my life being just me:).
Now before I start, I want you to know
– there would be absolutely no chance I could have been traveling
for this long without the unconditional love and support from my
fabulous family and outstanding friends that I've had for years
before beginning this never ending adventure = my life.
Thank you wouldn't even give them
justice. I just want you all to know: I am forever grateful for
absolutely every single person who has come and gone in my life up
this very moment that I breathe and type now.
I feel my life is like a movie and
sometimes people come in and out of my life as extras. Other times,
there are main characters or I may be in fast forward. I truly try to
never stay in reverse. I most certainly take the best from the past
moments but I do leave the rest behind. Whatever I feel is not going
to benefit me then it stays exactly where it is. While staying in the
moment is my constant goal. My favourite personal question is: will
this matter a year from now? And usually, no it won't and at that
moment, I let it go and move on:)
As my life movie plays out I do
acknowledge there are most certainly chapters of my life and I know
the page will always turn when its suppose to as well as, end when I
am ready for the next lesson. Let's begin with where we all started
and what we all need: LOVE :)
Love. Heart break. Appreciation. True
Love for yourself.
These four words make this chapter
number one. Without love no one would be here. Without having our
heart broken we truly wouldn't appreciate the love from someone else
and without that appreciation we wouldn't have the strength or
knowledge to know we need to love ourselves first before we can love
anyone else.
Let me explain how I've learned this
lesson and how I learned it very hard.
Let's call him Pedro (not only do I
love playing Pedro in the drinking game Kings, but the name fits:) ).
Before I started traveling I was dating Pedro for 3 years. He knew
this was something I always wanted to do and completely supported me.
Well, as immature as I was, it was a 'test' to see if he would
support me doing something on my own because I couldn't imagine being
with someone who wasn't. But of course, he was. Before I left to
Australia we talked about all situations and left on the same page –
so I thought.
Seven months later of strong long
distance ~ thank goodness for technology! I couldn't imagine writing
a letter every day and hope he got it 3 weeks later. (which later I
found out he left the same page within the first month) The final
month before I came home he went M.I.A (missing in action). This
month ended up being one of my favourite and most self realizing
months of my life! I had the gut feelings, the intuition and all the
crazy thoughts we all go through when the one you love doesn't
respond. Yet while traveling as opportunities continue to arise, I
stayed true to myself. As those opportunities tempted me; I knew who
I wanted to be and it didn't matter what or who he was doing back
home, miles away. It matter who I am and my choices because in the
end you can only control your own behaviour and your own choices. I
chose to be loyal. I chose to be honest. I chose to be true to
myself.
I am an honest, loving, caring,
faithful, fun, random, active, charismatic and a unique human being.
I am proud of who I am, what I have been through and what I've
learned so far.
I strive to be the best friend that I
would want as a best friend every day knowing I am being true to
myself which has gotten me exactly where I am today: happy and full
of life! :)
You ask, why the heck am I so grateful
and happy Pedro lied, betrayed and mistreated me? Well, because he
taught me forgiveness, acceptance and letting go. The whole situation
made me proud of my choices and because I know I deserve and will
have better than that.
The way I look at it is like this =
if I had a daughter and some guy was treating her the exact way Pedro
has been treating me: I would tell her to leave. What kind of mom
would I be if I didn't have the strength to walk away with my head
held high knowing I did everything I could and he simply chose
differently.
One thing I would like to be known by
is that I do what I say, I follow through and I keep my word. I
learned this lesson by getting heart broken. There are always
positives from every negative situation. Some we may have to be
patient to see them but they are always worth it! While some are just
a little more hidden than others;)
I also learned I was definitely not
innocent and I did cause a chunk of the mess. He truly did have me at
my absolute worse. I know I am not perfect nor do I try to be. I do
strive for excellence but I do know I'm going to make mistakes and
trust me, I've already made quite a few. However, I most certainly
don't regret them because I love myself exactly the way I am and I
wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't learn from those mistakes.
The great thing with having your
heart broken is you get to choose what pieces you want to pick up –
if any – and trust me, I sure chose wisely on the ones I picked
up:) Not only do I appreciate and am extremely grateful for our time
together – I deeply hope he is happy and she treats him as great as
he deserves – that I didn't always give him.
Without loosing him, I wouldn't
appreciate all the little things, I plus so many others take (n) for
granted. I know next time I am in a serious relationship I will owe a
lot to Pedro for teaching me about love, value and respect even
though his last bit of childish behaviour demonstrates otherwise. We
are no longer talking and I am sad I did lose my best friend but
sometimes in our lives we need to lose someone to make room for
someone even better! As always – I wish him well and will always
love him as the Pedro I knew, not the Pedro he is today.
Shaping. Growing. Acting. Thinking.
Believing. Being you.
The people we surround ourselves with
on a daily to regular basis has a HUGE influence on our behaviour,
decisions and actions. This fact alone opened my eyes to see Pedro
was truly my only negative aspect in my life and it was time to say
goodbye.
I constantly hang around inspiring,
driven, fun, loving, down to earth individuals because they all
encourage and motivate me to be a better person.
I have this motto: if I can be happy
95% of the time, 5% we all have our moments, days or even weeks but
to be happy 95% of the time, I will live a great life. So far –
it's been AMAZING!
“There's one thing guaranteed in life = it (people/things) will change!” = Thank you Ouellettes! The best advice I could hear during my heart break phase! To moving on and what a move on, I've been on:)!!
A couple of songs that helped me through this chapter of my life:)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xn676-fLq7I
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vqnwqsJYyiU
